Ashley Graham thought she had prenatal depression when she was pregnant with her son Isaac.
The model, who welcomed her first child in January, has opened up about the struggles she faced in the early days of her pregnancy, as she found it hard to cope with the changes happening to her body and her roller coaster emotions.
“That was the wildest part. I thought, ‘What about the things I’ve told myself? What about the affirmations I’ve gone through?’ None of these mattered because my body was changing so rapidly. It really took me some time to figure it out mentally, because it was like there was an alien taking over my body,” Ashley told U.K. Harper’s Bazaar magazine, sharing that she thought she had the condition.
“When you go from laughing to crying in 30 seconds, you do wonder if you are OK. Unbeknown to me, that’s pregnancy,” she stated. “One of the best things I did for myself was to make pregnant friends, and then I realised I wasn’t alone, I was normal, and that calmed me down. I started to enjoy being pregnant in my third trimester.”
The 32-year-old also candidly recalled welcoming Isaac in a birthing pool in the living room of her and husband Justin Ervin’s Brooklyn apartment.
“Justin wanted to be as helpful as possible, and the midwife told him: ‘There’s nothing you can do, nothing.’ There’s a photo of him rubbing my arm as I’m hanging over the edge of the pool, gazing into the eyes of the midwife, who’s keeping me focused and helping me count,” she revealed. “You can tell there’s a tear running down his face – it was agonising for him to see me in so much pain and not to be able to do anything about it.”
She went on to share that Justin kept himself occupied during her labour by making them all dinner.
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